Fiddler is very morose & gloomy

un vaghti ke daneshju budam o adabiato ye jure dige tajrobe mikardam hamishe fek mikardam in chiza maale unast,kamel hesseshun mikardam gahi oghat mishod mesaal hasho tu jaame'eye khodemun peyda kard amma un moghe' I was just an observer.I could diagnose but no particular treatment ya shayadam kheili jeddi dombale darman nabudam.But believe me hich vaght fek nemikardam in chiza baraye khodam pish biad ya doroatrafam baraye adamai ke beheshun vabaste hastam b vujud biad:
Lack of communication,being wierd while socializing,getting scared to start relationship or even a conversation,unproductivity,no fertility,no satisfaction,acting like a vagabond and a coward,wearing masks,being indifferent.......and worst of all Losing Faith in each other.
fek mikardam hameye ina ye seri bimariye gharne 20 0miye ke maale unast,ya hadde aghal az man dure vali hich vaght fek nemikardam dar gharne 21 bekham bahash dasto panje narm konam.
Fekkonam man hamishe ye "Romantic"(manzuram doreye romantic e adabiatiye) budam shayad ziadi perfectionist o idealist but I always had their beliefs,shayadam "Dead Poet's Society" komak kard b in shenakht beresam.un dore ham oje dastan bud ham moghaddameye zevaalesh.vali alan na tanha nemitunam mesle "Nuwanda" basham balke b hadde "Todd" ham nemiresam.Bedune in ke "Victorian Age" ro tajrobe konam yoho oftadam tu gharn e 20.shodam "Mr.Nilson" e "Japanese Quince" I have choky feeling in my throat,"Cat in the Rain" e Joyce ro behtar az khodesh dark mikonam,moshkel injast man in transmission ro nemikhastam va yoho b sor'at baram ettefagh oftad.
Albate hich tranmissioni bedune moghaddame be vujud nemiad,ehtemalan jarraghehaash tu senne 10,13,16,17,19,21 salegi zade shode,amma 22 salegi sale 84, oje "romantic" budane man va akharesh bud,che lahazaate naabi ro tajrobe kardam yadesh bekheir.age durugh nagofte basham nimeye dovom e sale 83 dar daneshgah ham kheili khub bud.anyways...(hala ke harfe saalha shod 84 saale arusye nc ham bud ke aali bud)
Saale 85:
I lost my Faith in u & The Others,u lost ur faith in me 2,I know.We all 've changed to Introverts.I 'm not as brave as Eliot to be even neoclassic cause I've lost my Faith in my Classic too.chera un shaba behem Directly nagofti moshkel chiye?Chera mano varede baazi kardi?alan dige nemishe soraghe un harfa raft har chan 100 bar khastam bahat harf bezanam amma goftam ke man yek Mr.Nilson shodam,to hamishe mituni komak bashi baraye hame amma man nakhastam amma alan ke mikham to b man hich komaki nemituni bokoni,aslan to alan baraye man tahdid e bozorgi hasti.
Midunam hanuz ye maah az sale 85 munde amma 85 baraye man kheili vaghte tamum shode faghat badish ine ke 86 hich mozhdei baram tu raah nadare there 's no future. Chera tu daneshgah nagoftan post modern che ettefaghi miofte nakone goftan man yadam nist?mikham bedunam che juri in Modernism darman mishe,delam mikhad alan ye transmission e dige soorat begire,mishe?
Age ostade "Survey in literature"e man alan inaro mikhund be jaye 14 behem 20 midad,sheytune mige beram doctoraye Naghd begiram ;)
delam baraye classaye Dr.Payande tang shode shayad beram sabte nam konam,shayad chon strict e betune behem komak kone.I wanna experience Shelley,Wordsworth and Coleridge again.Where is my dear Shakes?
I wanna be in Berlin and be flown away by the magic of Beethoven's violin concerto.Do u see any fiddler around here?Oh,I'm off the roof now